Back to the hospital this morning to get the results of a hearing test to try and work out what is wrong with – well, my hearing.
You may have heard of cocktail party syndrome – where people are able to pick out individual conversations over the babble of the background noise. I have the opposite.
In a normal office type enviroment I am fine – but put me in a room with lots of people talking, or music playing and I am almost totally deaf.
All I hear is a disjointed babble.
It is socially very damaging as I can’t join in conversations – or risk trying to chat to strangers in a pub lest I spend all evening saying “pardon?”.
I thought it was the music volume in pubs – but everyone else seems to be chatting without problems (well, without too many problems), and over time I worked out that it is a level of background noise above which it is almost as if my ears give up and decide to go on strike.
Maybe my ears have joined the RMT?
Anyhow – last year I had a hearing test and while they found some slight loss at the higher frequencies it was nothing like enough to explain the problem. So – I had an MRI scan carried out last November and went back today to get the results (yes, six months later).
So – all the tests say I am fine, but the fact is that in even moderatly chatty enviroments, I am practically deaf.
I have now been referred to another specialist and will have to wait for the letter, then the apointment etc.
I am guessing that it might be that the hearing is fine, but the way the brain processes the information may be at fault and it just flips out when there is too much noise around. Not sure if they can fix that.
I just wish they could find out what it is though – as I really do hate going out with friends and then spending all evening nodding and grinning to look like I am joining in – but am actually just sat there bored to tears.